Change of seasons
Change of colors
Everything seems...
It was a time in my life, several years ago, that I am not proud of. However, I remember it because of the defining change that occurred in my life.
I am not sure how it happened?
~From the sudden illness I had encountered?
~From the side effects of the medicine?
~Was it just one of those things that we label as “unbalance”.
Whatever the cause ~ the result was depression.
I realize what you may be thinking. “Laurie, you are a Pastor’s wife!” Yes, I know and possibly that is the reason it totally took me by surprise! If the truth were told, I was in a very low place and I did not like it!
How did I get here?
More importantly, how do I get OUT of here?
Depression is like a thief
-it will sneak up on you
-it comes to steal and rob
-it is not satisfied until every ounce is drained
This is exactly how I felt. I did not want to be around people. It took every ounce of strength to be awake. I had no desire to do anything for anybody! The colors were all so faded! I just wanted to curl up and die.
That may have been the plan all along. The enemies’ plan - that is. Thank goodness there was a plan put into motion that was so much bigger and so much better.
- a plan to pull me up out of the miry clay.
- a plan to set my feet on solid ground.
- a plan that proved that no matter what...God was not going to leave me nor forsake me!
- God had a plan! It just took me a little while to see it, to grasp it, to believe it.
JOHN 16:20 (nkjv) "Most assuredly, I say to you that you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice, and you will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will be turned into joy."
God had given back to me what was stolen. He changed my season, He changed my colors.
Go ahead, give it up today and FALL FOR JESUS COMPLETELY!
ISAIAH 64:8 (nkjv)"But now, O Lord, You are our Father; We are the clay, and You our potter; and all we are the work of Your hand."
This is a submission to a writing contest.
But I would be amiss if I did not offer assistance to anyone who may read this that is struggling with depression. Depression is very real in many women. You do not have to go thru depression alone. If you need someone to talk to, please seek godly counsel from a Christian Counselor or your local Pastor. God is your almighty healer, and He has put people in your path that will help guide you to finding the bright colors of life once again. Please seek help.
7 comments:
A great post, Laurie, and so encouraging to anyone that has suffered or is suffering with depression.
As someone who has battled depression since the age of 9 (mine is now under control with medication), I can tell that your post is awesome and full of so much wisdom and truth. Such an encouraging post and submission to the writing contest. God bless you, Laurie, for sharing your honest heart!
Laurie,
What a beautiful post. How encouraging and such a great truth you have spoken!
I am so blessed that you have reclaimed the beautiful colors that God has given you! To Him be all the glory for the great things He has done and will continue to do!
Hugs & blessings to you today, sweet sis!
It is true, depression strikes anyone and is not a picker thing. Even though you are a pastor's wife, it does not mean that you are super woman either. God is faithful. Thank you for being so open and honest.
What an encouraging post, Laurie. Yes, sometimes the world around us can seem very dull, colorless. I have to agree with you, the enemy likes to steal and rob us of our job, but Jesus stand with His hands wide open to give us comfort, peace and joy.
Blessings to you and yours.
as always- good stuff!
love it!
db
Hi Laurie,
I too battled with a chronic medical condition that makes me more prone to clinical depression. Like Laurie Ann, I am also under medical help and other helps. Thank God that He has made available means to deliver us.
Thank God for delivering you! Thanks for your openness in sharing with us. May God bless you always.
Take care,
Nancie
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