Tuesday, July 19, 2011

A PIECE OF MY HEART... becoming the real me

Recently, I have been going thru alot of stuff that has caused me to do some real deep soul searching. I am trying to figure out who I really am. I know that I am a wife, a mom, a writer, a friend, a Christian...but what about really deep down.

 Who am I really?

Have you ever had someone speak less than positive things in your spirit? Maybe it was a put down, or name calling or possibly you have been judged inaccurately. For many of us who have experienced these things, when we hear it over and over, we start to believe it ourselves. Even if it is not an accurate assessment of who we really are.

I have found myself to be in a place that the enemy is whispering lies into my ear. He is trying to tell me that I am less than I am. He is using people whom I once respected and adored to speak negativity into my spirit. It is difficult sometimes to dismiss these voices that try to tell me I am something that I know that I am not.

But God says...

God says that I am so much more. He has made me what I am and He has made me for a purpose. People who have hurt me with their destructive words and behaviour cannot have the last word of whom I was created to be. They are not my Creator. They have no authority over me.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm 139:13 (NIV)

I was not designed to be what others expected me to be, or even wanted me to be. I was created to be ALL that God desired for me to be. Many times I think I get lost in the process of "becoming". I get busy trying to meet the demands that all my roles come with, I get caught up in trying to be what others think I should be, and I get tricked in believing that I am not as worthy or as important as others. I wonder if the "real me" just doesn't get buried in the busyness of life and people pleasing efforts.

As I have looked inwardly, I have seen a bunch of mangled up emotions but at the same time I have seen sensitivity, creativity and a passion that has only grown with each and every trial and test. I know alot of women who are much stronger than me, more beautiful than me and have more experience than me, but God has shown me that He DID NOT create me to be like them. He didn't create me to be like you nor did He create you to be like me. He created each of us to be used in a unique way.

It is so easy to neglect who we really are because we get so busy trying to be who others want us to be...but when we do that, we risk closing off a place in our spirit where God's gifts and dreams are just waiting to be revealed.

So, how well do you know the real you?

Have you ever considered what God created you to do? When we surrender our unique personalities and passions to Him, He will lead and guide us to be all we can be for Him!

His voice is the voice we must listen to. Who says we are beautiful, strong and unique?...HE SAYS!

and this has been a piece of my heart today;

1 comment:

eph2810 said...

"When we surrender our unique personalities and passions to Him, He will lead and guide us to be all we can be for Him!"...love that Laurie.

It is so true; we always try to become that people like, but that is not who He has made us to be. We need to listen to His voice.

Thank you for sharing these beautiful thoughts.